As the 3 people in my life (husband, sister, ex-husband) will tell you, my sanity has been in high question for a while now. I’m not okay. I’m without a job, but I have an attractive and sexy husband who is a better human being and man than I ever dreamed of, truly awesome kids who are damn-near perfect, and my 4.0 in college is a breeze. We’ve got no spare money for shit, no savings or retirement, and we live week-to-week, but we do make ends meet each month.
And yet, I’m completely friggin’ stressed. Out-of-my mind stressed. Can’t even look at my resume stressed. Let alone spruce it up and send it anywhere or go face people. And God help me if a job were to fall in my lap because I would completely self-destruct. I know this well, because it even started with the job I had, before I got laid off. Even my 4.0 is starting to suffer, and quickly, because I can’t bring myself to even look at what’s assigned let alone actually do it. And I’d like to make friends–real friends–and desperately need to, I can’t even do that because it’s too much pressure and I can’t pretend to be happy right now. Which is cool for established friends who know you’re going through something, but completely psycho for people who don’t know the real you yet.
So anyhoo, I was encouraged by this quote I just ran across, and wanted to preserve it here. Enjoy.
Sometimes when you have outgrown the people or situations in your life, and you’re not aware, or don’t have the courage to move on ~ life will move on you. You may have been told that your company is going in another direction. You knew it was coming, and you didn’t prepare yourself. Now you are angry, and feel you were wronged. You’ve got to move on.
Your relationship of many years may have ended, and you were devastated, confused and shocked. You’re in pain; feel disillusioned; and full of despair. However, it’s time to move on. Your mind might be reeling, and your heart probably feels like it’s been ripped out and handed to you on a platter. As hard as it will be, you have to shake it off, and move on. Moving on doesn’t mean that you give up. Moving on means that no job, relationship, house, or any other thing is worth your sanity. Don’t focus on the things that you’ve lost. You can always get these back and much more. Focus your mind; get still; go within; tap into your greatness; and move on. You deserve.
~ Les Brown