(A quick note I wrote to some friends who expressed feeling like they were not available enough for me. It captures a lot of how I’ve been feeling in general, so I’m taking the liberty of posting it here.)
No problem, guys. It’s a tough time we live in. We’re all pulled in so many directions that no matter how much we do it’s still never enough.
I was feeling better for a couple weeks, but am feeling the pressure again. So then I work later than I should, and am tired the next day. So then I’m slower and stuck trying to catch up until too late the next night… it’s an awful cycle. It’s hard to not feel guilty for the sliver of time you actually took to just relax for a few minutes in between everything else.
It happens at my job, it happens at home, it happens at church because now I’m feeling pressure because I’ve missed the last *4 weeks*. And maybe lack of fellowship and corporate worship is part of the reason. But then again, I think it’s my nature, and maybe all of our natures as women, and definitely also the time we live in.
It’s exhausting, how complicated life is.
Actually I need to be writing way more than I do. It’s good for me when I can process things and get it out. Yet nearly impossible to prioritize doing so.
Not that I’m trying to ramble on about how bad I’ve got it… I’ve not actually said anything at all! I’m just betting that you guys feel the same, and maybe we can at least commiserate and when we’re in the middle of it 9 times a day: think of each other and know we’re not alone.
