Yeah!! I always hated those damn things that I never got done.

Skip to the part that says “Better bladder control”…

And the rest of the article is pretty excellent, too, IMO

No More Kegels!!!

Sorry it’s been so long, but I’ve got a good excuse this time. I’ve been homeless, jobless, and pretty-much helpless and useless (*snicker*). Seriously, though. I left my husband on November 16th (15 days ago) and really have been homeless and jobless. Got a job and an apartment today. Will move in on Sunday. I’m excited. Never lived alone before. DH is being a dream… now! Oh well. At least he’s not making this any harder than it has to be. So anyway, I’m officially back online, though not every day yet. Hopefully within the next couple weeks, when I can get settled into the apartment and cable (/internet) installed there. The job is part-time so I can still pursue web design in the mornings. Because I could make a lot more at that, and DH is being good about still sharing office space. It’ll get me off state aid a lot quicker and generally be better all around, so let’s hope things take off quickly!

Speaking of which, I’ve got to take off quickly too. I can’t say where I’m staying until after I’m moved into the apartment, but suffice it to say there’s a curfew. So I’ve got to scoot!

TTYS

The good news is- someone passed along the link to that “OK Go” video that I’ve got linked from like a month or two ago (search the posts if you don’t remember it- it is worth watching!!). So not only did I totally get off on watching it again, someone then passed along the link (it was on a newsgroup) to their site, and mentioned another video in particular. I haven’t had a chance to watch any others yet (note my previous post about fighting with programs that don’t want me to install them) but did watch the one and it was also very good! Here’s the link to the page… you’ll have to scroll down just past half of the page to watch the one called “A Million Ways”. Oh, link- http://www.okgo.net/video.asp

The bad news is that my son doesn’t seem to want to go back to sleep when he wakes up. He prefers just crying because I’m not getting him out of the crib. Last night he fussed for like an hour. Of course I hadn’t gotten him his cup, either. Once I finally did then he was good-to-go for the rest of the night. It was nice sleeping by myself. We’ve been doing the cup thing for a good week now. I know it’s not good for his teeth, but I think it’s okay that I get some sort of break and stop being the human back-to-sleep pacifier. He actually seemed to do better last night on his own. Fluke? I guess we’ll see.

Okay, I just dumped out the milk that was in his cup when I first gave it to him and put juice in it. He’s still not used to milk and doesn’t care for it. Apparently the strawberry gunk that my DH put in it wasn’t enough to make the Prince X happy with it. Juice is seeming to be okay… until further notice.

That might be about it! Well, I finally took care of those monstrous piles in my room. Got the file cabinet in here, got my stuff from the other one (in the other room) into this one, so that ought to be a huge help since it will make it easier to get things out and put them away. So they won’t just keep on stacking up until they can’t be found anymore among all the other things that I need to have ‘handy’. Now there’s just the matter of dealing with all the stuff that had stacked up, and is filling a Rubbermaid tote. Yikes. But my desk is clean, I’ve got access to my files, and even much better access to my most important books. And since X *climbed up onto the top of the bookcase* in the kids’ room the other day, that will soon be in my room, trading spots with the dresser that is currently in here but holding mostly his stuff anyway. So then I’ll be able to dig out even more of my books that I’m really missing. Man, have I been missing “Prescription for Nutritional Healing”!! And I don’t even remember what else. I think all I need now to complete the space is a kinda big whiteboard, and a CD-holder of some sort. There was a spinning one that wasn’t plastic or otherwise tacky at Target. I guess that was about a year ago, though. But I’m sure I’ll find something. I’ll take pics when I do so ya’ll can ’see’ me when you read me.

Ugh. Getting notice from the prince. Better go.

Let’s see how quick I can make this…

The baby’s gone. Bright red bleeding started at a regular flow on Sunday night. I wept for a half hour or more and finally fell asleep. More bleeding, cramps and lots of blood, baby passed at 8:10 I think. Maybe 7:10. Will have to check phone records and confirm. I hemorrhaged a bit but nothing a little iron didn’t take care of. An overnight pad every half hour for a few hours, then it was abruptly over. Not much cause for concern because I’m a bleeder anyway. We were careful and watchful and no medical intervention was necessary (and we mostly knew it wouldn’t be, but we weren’t wreckless either). As for the baby itself… can’t throw it away… can’t flush it… what in the world do you do with your dead baby?? Can’t plant it, can’t take it into the docs for testing for reasons too long for this post, so when I had to do something with it on my way to bed, it got put into a sealed bowl which was put way back in my fridge. Which, I know, sounds pretty… not right. Unbalanced, maybe. See, there’s not even a word for it. But seriously- what in the world do you do with your dead child, who wasn’t far enough along for a ‘proper’ burial or death certificate. Either way, the baby’s gone. I had gone shopping to get excited about it and promptly returned everything the next day. I didn’t want that hanging over my head too. I did hang on to 3 items which were really nice and I had gotten on a great sale… just in case. But they’re bagged, receipted, in the van, and pretty ignorable (not in the way) so not weighing on me.

My daycare mom had her baby the next day. So I’ve got a lot of days off now since the other mom is also on Maternity leave for who-knows-how-long and my only other kid only comes on Mondays and Tuesdays. I’ve got Wed-Fri free for at least a couple weeks now!! Yay! Going to the hospital and seeing the baby was alright. She was all alone by the time we got there and I feared she’d get lonely so we stayed for well over an hour, until closing time. The kids were amusing her so I don’t think (hopefully) we overstayed our welcome. Baby was cute.

My PDA- it works again!!! Woo-hoo!! You seriously don’t know how happy that makes me.

I’ve lost 2 more pounds in the past couple days. So I’m back down to what I was a couple weeks ago when I got all stressed and did my normal binging-and-gorging thing and ended up gaining back 4 of the 8 I had lost a few weeks prior. Ahh, I love food. Except I haven’t eaten any since 48 hours ago when a friend brought a Meatball Sub from Subway. Mmmm… Footlong on white with provalone, parmesan and oregano. Well, yesterday I had a Mountain Dew, candy bar (Peanut Butter Twix… MMMM), and some Gardettos (original mix… MMMM). That counts for food, right? I call it the candy diet. Apparently it’s working well! LOL Thank God for really great vitamins, eh? So lets see… 2 down, just 35 more to go! *sigh* Started back on the TrimSpa today. That’s some pretty cool stuff. Except it may have caused the miscarriage, but that’s a whole lot of speculation and probably unlikely anyway. Besides, we’ll never know and I’m not pregnant anymore anyway. So Viva la Skinny! I was in a decent amount of discomfort what with my uterus stretching out and whatnot, and I didn’t want to aggrevate it more so stopped working out. Though I had barely started, I was doing better with it than I ever have, so hopefully I’ll be able to pick back up with it right where I left off. It wouldn’t bother me to hang on to up to 10 pounds if it’s muscle. But all this fat has got to go. It even feels gross.

I went to my first Chamber of Commerce meeting this week. It was pretty cool. Not much time for networking as it was an official event with a presentation and everything, but it was good to meet the couple people I did. And the sitting President strongly indicated they’re going to be needing a new web designer to manage the site, which they’re paying to have done. What great timing! Crossing my fingers there.

I got a call today, and found out that my business got its first call at the office! Woo-hoo!!! It must be listed somewhere already because it was a marketer lol. But who cares?!? I got my first business call!! lol

I also sent my text in for the Yellow Pages ad. I’m so excited. It’ll come out in December.

The biggest thing for me to deal with now is getting the voice mail at the office to say my web design company’s business name instead of the name of DH’s old business that I’m adopting the number from! He said he got some equipment in today that may or may not take care of the problem he was having in getting the voice mail able to be changed. He’ll work on it this weekend. If it doesn’t, then I’ll just get an ‘old-fasioned’, mechanical (GASP!), answering machine to intercept the line before the current voice mail grabs it. :D

That might be about it. Oh- the drawer on my desk fell off! It had been loose, and then I was trying to pull it out and down it came! I’m pretty glad, though, because where my knees kept hitting it before (see, it’s not always sexy to have long legs), even with the keyboard tray pulled all the way out, now they’ve got some breathing room!

My room is still a mess. 4 huge piles of paper, and that doesn’t even count the scatterings across my desk which prevent me from seeing it on any of the 3 levels it has. Eek. I’m really hoping we can get that file cabinet from the garage into this here bedroom because I need it! Stuff is getting lost!

So anyway, I should probably go bathe myself at some point today. And then I have to pick up the Challah for church tomorrow. Hmm, I wonder if it’s my turn for kids’ snacks again. I should probably check on that. Shabbat Shalom, y’all.

Regardless of whether you think abortion should be legal or not (and I actually do believe, because of my Christian faith, that it should be legal even though it makes me sick and offends my “morals” and my sensibilities), the following quotes from this article just kinda rocked my world.

One of the country’s leading hospitals is throwing aborted babies into the same incinerator used for rubbish to save only £18.50 each time, it has emerged.

The revelation sparked anger and distress among church leaders and pro-life groups, as well as women whose pregnancies were terminated at the hospital.

Like, why??? You killed it. For whatever reason- its life wasn’t worth you putting it up for adoption or whatever else. Now all of a sudden its carcass is so meaningful that you should be angry over the way it was disposed of after you had it shredded to death?!? You’ve got to be kidding!!