I keep trying not to, but I keep finding myself doing it. Literally.

Someone has taken the snowglobe of my life and decided to shake it all around.

I have to admit that ’someone’ is me. But that doesn’t make it any less… shakey.

I made some bad decisions last year, my first year of being single. And while they seemed like good decisions at the time, I see now that they were definitely not. Now I’m in need of a car, and a job. And I need both to get the other.

I’m *this close* to getting a job. There were some bureaucratic hoops to jump through, and everyone just waits for that. But the job is definitely worth it. I just jumped through the last hoop, and am holding my breath on the official job offer, and to figure out what they intend to pay (I know it will be decent, just not sure how decent) and if that needs to be negotiated at all. *sigh*

Last stop: needing a car. NOW. I’ve got faith and all, but my nerves are still shot with all this focus it takes to walk this tightrope. Job requires 24/7 availability for emergencies… so there’s no way to not have a car at my complete and immediate disposal to get me there.

I also have another interview for a different job which I only expect to pay half as well. But in case anything falls through with the first, it will be an easy job for me that I’d enjoy too. And though it would still require a car to get me there and home, by the time they offer it then I’ll have had more time to come up with one.

Gulp.

I’ve had a project that had become a serious pain in the butt. Partly my own fault because I dropped the ball here and there which created difficulty, but largely not my fault because of many other issues. Client was very nice, I can’t complain there! Work wasn’t even too troublesome once hitting on a workable solution. It was just the project itself. And even when major development wrapped a month (or more?) ago, it still lingered and loomed.

I am happy to announce that it is now up, done, and the client is happy! There are a couple tweaks to be made which I already knew about (waiting on info to accomplish it), and expect a couple more tweak requests besides. But the site is now up and, for all intense purposes, done!

Though it went up and was therefore officially done yesterday, it still loomed and remained a pain in the ol’ arse because I couldn’t get a hold of the client. But! I just heard from them, and they are happy. Possibly very happy. Probably just as relieved as I am. Which makes me very happy, anyway!

And the sun is shining. Who cares that I got no sleep last night between my mind racing and then the crazy non-stop dreams once my eyes finally did shut? Or that EDH, in spite of my warning him last night about my sleeplessness, was crabby with me this morning anyway? (Mind you: crabby is an extremely generous adjective for me to use.) And that it’s just a lot to deal with: catching up on everything in the office and synchronize everything from home after two full weeks out? It is officially a great day.

I’m not big on holiday propaganda, but I had to catalog this video due to the pervasive (yet not actually funny) joke surrounding clients who insist that their logo can never be big enough on their advertising material (including websites)… set to a popular holiday-themed tune and video.

Just a little backdrop so you can get the joke since you’re not all geeks like me: So there’s been a lot of talk in the web marketing world lately that short, direct, to-the-point marketing is not as effective online as it is in real life. Interestingly enough, the medium that people turn to for quick, fast, predigested information is the place where they expect to most be inundated with information overload before they’ll plunk down their cash. These days, it’s long copy writing that is the cat’s meow.

So mix the need for lots of coherent words that will inspire people to part with their fundage with no sleep and a fateful car ride, and what do you get? Something I might enjoy just a little too much.

Maybe I need sleep before I encounter a fateful car ride of my own.

Job 1: Focus. I don’t need to learn any new stuff right now. I can pay people to do those things, if I can just get the projects. I may very well not make any money this way, but at least I will be getting projects, which will get me referrals and more projects, and before I know it working that system will start to build up an income for myself as well as everyone else I’ll have been paying. I need to focus on getting projects. Marketing. This would include redoing my own business site… again… to include a blog and updating it regularly. Ugh. Or at least getting the site *how* it needs to be even if I don’t utilize the blogging part of it yet. And getting out there and getting contracts signed.

Job 2: Sleep. And get up early. Not to mention it will help focus me since I won’t be waking up rushed and therefore scatter-brained in the “put-out-fires” mentality. And less impacted by stress. Won’t that be nice! But how? I even feel better when I’m get up in the morning and don’t sleep into the day. But still I just can’t seem to get it together in that department. Well, I happened upon this site while reading some work stuff, and found this article. I’m going to start tonight. I don’t care what’s not done, or how the apartment looks, or anything else. I’m going to go to bed when I’m tired, and God help me… get up at a time that I can’t even remember the last time I got up at. I feared that getting in this habit would leave me going to bed at early hours to where I could never see my kids or have a social life, but hopefully what he says is correct. Somehow I just know it has to be. I’m so tired of being tired. Maybe then I can kick this sugar/caffeine (soda) habit which I know isn’t helping matters but is currently necessary all-the-same.

Wish me luck!